Warning :
I don't mind sharing the pictures for motivational / inspiration / education purposes.
I look like a vanilla boy, with a facial hair, a swollen face, it is really really really bad.
I'm not going to share it in public here.
But if it helps anyone out there, just ask me for them and ill show you
But please respect that i don't want those shared, because that is not who i am / want to be.
I know it isn't porn and i'm sorry for that, but i think these kind of real life feminization updates do serve a good purpose!
I hope they inspire many other sissies to do the same thing.
Today was the most painfull day in my life haha.
I am extremly tired.
I had an appointment for electrolysis today! That is permanent hair removal where they destroy each hair individually, hair per hair with a laser. My appointment was from 09:00 in the morning untill 17:00 in the evening. At a private hospital. (I will be sharing the name of the hospital once i had my last treatment) Price : 900 euro.
It was only a 1 hour drive, but in one of the mainc ities of belgium (antwerp) and during these times, traffic jams are very very common. So, just to be sure i was on time (this is howmuch i wanted it) I drove there at 06:00 in the morning and i arrived at 07:30.
So after finding a place to park my car, i waited for 80 more minutes before walking inside the hospital.
They were very friendly (it's a hospital specially for transgenders by the way!) and was immediatly impressed by how proffesional it all looks. They took pictures of my facial hair so i would have some before and after results.
And i really did not like seeing myself as a vanilla boy with facial hair. I had to grow my hair for weeks before it was long enough to get this done, and i felt really awfull during these weeks.
Anyway, we had a short conversation about how i already had electrolysis done at my city at a beauty saloon and i told her i payed 400 euro to have half my upper lip done and it was extremly painfull and slow.
She looked very suprised and told me thats a scam. And that suprised me.
So here we go, there are different methods and different amounts you have to pay for electrolysis. If you ever plan to do this, find a proffesional.
I payed 400 euros for 4 hours and did half my upper lip. And it took +- 10second for each hair to be ''burned and destroyed'' on top of this, there was no anesthetia. So it was super painfull.
At first, this person did not believe i did that without anesthetics because it is so painfull.
My upper lip was like 50% done too.
Here, i payed 900 euros for 8 hours and it took 1 second per hair instead of 10 seconds. Litterly 10 times the speed at a lower price. AND THEY USE anesthetia Can you believe that??!!! That's insane.
Anyway, time to start my session!
I asked her to finish my upper lip.
She took an anesthetic syringe and put it in my upper lip, and that made me cry from pain. She used it like 5 times to numb my upper lip and i had to sit still and take it, it was the most intense pain i ever felt. You might think that a syringe doesn't hurt so bad, well, these ones go under your skin, and MOVE AROUND to spread out the anesthisia. You can feel it moving under your skin. It's hell. Absolute hell. But once those 5 minutes were done we could start.
She completed my upper lip in 30 minutes.
We moved downwards, and she used another syringe to numb below my lips and towards my chin, making me cry from pain again.
But after 2 minutes of HELL, the electrolysis didn't hurt at all! So that was good.
When we reached half time we took a break to eat something at the guest house.
The guest house is managed by a M2F trans person (a very amazing, very friendly person who made great soup for me haha) <3
After that, back to electrolysis.
We talked abit about the patients they have and howmany of those people are lonely and have mental problems.
Almost all of them are disowned by their family she said. That person told me they get a lot of very depressing and sad stories from their patients and that made me so mad, i hate that so much. I feel sooo bad for them.
I have soooo much respect for all the trans people, they must endure so much.
Anyway, i'm back home.
My entire face is like a balloon that is on fire right now.
3 days no make up
14 days no sun
Yay me
I am taking pictures every hour of my progress 😊 will be sharing them to those who want it.
Not gonna post it here tho, not everyone wants to see me in pain 😂
The positive side of all these things is that i will be sharing all my experiences and tips with everyone.
For example my weightloss routine, what its like to get your teeth bleached, what electrolysis is like and so on
I understand and know my content has become a little less impressive.
I am very aware of it.
I´m just tired of pretending to be a boy and i don´t want to deliver half work or feel nervous for dating men.
Since April, i have been going trough hell to be fair. A weightloss routine that shrinks muscle mass and weight is insane. I think about food every hour. I´ve been trough a lot of pain both physicly and mentally in order to achieve my goals. I have spend almost all the money i earned in my feminization. My sissy pussy got bleached, my teeth fixed and now rhey are bleached aswell, getting skinny, permanent laser hair removal everywhere, even my face, getting completly exposed, Daily long cardeo workouts and trying to keep up with onlyfans, social media, pornsites and webshops has been hard. But the finish line is in sight. I´m almost there. And it´s going to be worth it. Because i am going to do real life dates very soon. I am excited to be "done" with all of this.
Currently my teeth are super sensitive from bleaching them that eating is impossible, so thats good i guess. Mentally i am okay, motivated and very strong. But i´ve never experienced so much pain, so much work, so much preasure.
But it´s going to be worth it.
27th of may is a big day for me.
Electrolysis hair removal for 8 hours.
I don´t know how my skin would look like after that but you can expect great things in june.
I am so thankfull for this.
I want to become the biggest cumdumpster on the planet and i realized i need to "fix" my issues in order to do so
I am ready to become a real life whore, for real!
When i get rid of my insecurities , i'm planning to really go to the next level
It's all thanks to Mistresses like @princessdiamonds and @mistresslfatale who guide me and push me and feminize me
I am working onr emoving my last insecurities!
27th may i'm getting 8 hours of electrolasys, maybe ill need 1 more session after that but it should already get rid of the most of it. (I'm very excited for it)
Once i'm done by the end of may
It is time to fullfill my destiny, do real life sessions and become a real cumdumpster.
This is our garden right now haha. They fixed the roof of our little shed and on saturday they are going to finish it and clean up.
I´m really happy ibought a jacuzzi, even tho it´s one of the cheaper ones. I really like going outside sitting in the jacuzzi and listening to the birds haha 😊
Goodmorning ❤
How does real exposure feel like, you might ask yourself...
So today i'd like to share you my experiences with exposure and how it made me feel.
My first time getting exposed was a simple picture of my locked up clitty posted on the internet. It got shared and captioned. And that made me feel scared and excited at the same time. I wanted to feel that rush more often!
When posting pictures of yourself online, the chance of you getting caught is very low. Just like most sissies i was really afraid that my family and friends would find out. But as my folower count grew, so did the risk of getting exposed and that turned me on even more and more and down the sissy rabbit hole i went.
When an anonymous person in Belgium messaged me on Xhamster saying : ''Oh hey (my full name), i didn't know you turned out to be a sissy slut LOL'' and then he blocked me. My heart raced. For a few weeks i stopped sharing myself, but nothing happened, and i kinda wanted to feel that excitement again.
My pictures got out of control, and it still turns me on very much to see others posting my pictures and sharing me like the slut i am.
But the first time i experienced exposure in real life was the story of how a female co-worker saw that i was wearing pink panties.
That was really exciting to me, the more i became a sissy slut, the more i kinda craved to be treated like one in real life.
When i started feminizing myself more, i had to go to beauty saloons to get waxed, and it's very hard to hide a female belly button piercing and so on and i proudly explained that i'm a sissy without thinking about it much. I started to get used to the fact that people know i'm a sissy.
All this is going on while a lot of my folowers spread my pictures and like to humiliate me (so hottt!!)
My sissy fantasy was getting out of control.
With the success of my onlyfans, i felt more a sense of pride in what i am and i became more reckless.
One day while dressed up, i accepted a friends skype call and my webcam turned on and he saw everything.
The other day, when gaming with my best friend, an e-mail popped up to ''sissy joyce'' asking about my chastity cage.
My friends started to know.
Not long after that, i got recognized on a local chatsite.
And then now, where there is a guy who thinks he is interesting showing everyone of the people that know me my twitter feed.
How does it all make me feel?
The best word to discribe it is...
Freedom
I feel more free, like i'm allowed to be proud of myself now.
Exposure is super hot, but also super good for sissies. For anyone actually.
I now know who my real friends are and who are not.
I learned to remove negativity out my life with the speed of 3 mouseclicks (blocking a person and done)
And i love the attention i get from all the people who want to use me for what i am.
You can folow my humiliation and exposure journey on my special onlyfans page.
Not everyone is into my exposure so i'd like to keep it sepperate.
www.onlyfans.com/sissyjoyceexposed
My laser hair removal day in the hospital has been put on 27th may instead of tomorow because my hairs were not long enough.
Just wanted to let you know ❤
I was testing out some toys yesterday and this vibrator wand + holder is going to be very very exciting to use haha 😍
Sissy items used in this video :
- https://sissymarket.com/collections/sissy-costumes/products/rolecos-to-love-ru-momo-cosplay-costume-bunny-girl-sexy-jumpsuit-momo-belia-deviluke-women-pink-costume-cosplay-romper-halloween
- https://sissymarket.com/collections/sissy-wands/products/sissygasm-training-belt
- https://sissymarket.com/collections/sissy-wands/products/sissygasm-wand-usb-charged
Today i cried a little.
I am so sick and tired of havinf facial hair.
The electrolyse sessions are too slow and laser hair is unaffective.
I did what i must do
And Tuesday, 18 may, i'm going to a HOSPITAL to get my hair removed in a session of 8 hours.
This was extremly expensive but i'm so freakin tired of it being an issue
I'm nervous but fuck it
✨ANAL BLEACHING, Is it worth it?✨
In the beginning of April i wrote a list of everything i want to get done on my body. And one of those things was Anal Bleaching.
So i looked everything up on the internet and saw a huge amount of price ranges.
I had to make a choice between :
There are Anal Bleaching sets that you can just do yourself at home OR go to a beauty place and let them do it.
The price difference was huge. You can buy anal bleaching cremes online for +- $20 while if you let a proffesional do it, it costs like $200.
I decided to go for the proffesional route. I wanted (and still want) results as soon as possible. I want this self improvement to be over with so i can focus on being my true sissy self more often.
I made the appointment and when i arrived, the guy asked me to answer a few questions about alergics and medication.
I am not alergic for anything and i don't take medication so it was safe for me to do.
He warned me that he is going to aply ointment on the area and that it might give a warm/burning sensation and that it's normal.
I layed down and he applied it to me. I felt my sissy pussy getting a little warmer but nothing i couldn't handle and after a few minutes he removed it.
He told me that i needed to use a special ointment for the next 60 days. So every evening, i have to aply a bleaching cream on my sissy pussy.
So far we are let's say 2 weeks in and i can already see great results!
But the cream feels warm and my sissy pussy can get itchy during the days, that is kinda anoying, but there isn't any pain.
I tought it was a 1-time thing with instant results but it's not. I paid $200 for the treatment and an extra $100 for the ointment for 60 days.
Is it worth it?
Not for everyone. I think anal bleaching is a nice extra touch but it's not super worth the money. A big part of my onlyfans income goes towards my feminization so for me it was kinda okay. I'm happy that i did it tho! When i asked him about the cheaper methods, he said that those are unsafe to use, but, keep in mind that he might have just said that for me to buy the treatment haha.
I hope this informed you enough about anal bleeching.
P.S. Like my outfit? 🤗
#sissyfication #sissybeauty #sissystory
I have a lot of news and content to share!!!
But today i'm going to make some more
god i missed being a slut so bad
You will get more updates this evening orrrrrr tomorow depending on how tired i am 😂
I am REALLY looking forward to this evening.
Last electrolasys appointment, the girl said she really likes to dress ''men'' up and help them with their make-up.
So i offered her to come visit me and teach me everything about make-up and how she would dress me!
She's comming over this evening!
I am reaching the ''finish'' line for my 2 months of pure feminization and getting more proffesional
✅ My Sissy pussy bleaching has been a success and i can see the results
✅ Weightloss has been a success but i prefer to continue +- 2 more weeks so i reach my goal
✅ The webshop has been sorted out and real life ''business'' things has been taken care of, i can focus on being a sissy fulltime once more
✅ I completed 5 dentist appointments, now that my teeth are perfect, i'm allowed to get them bleached. This will happen 21st may.
✅ I did my last laser hair removal sessions on my body. My body is completly permanently smooth. (1000 euro cost)
✅ My facial hair however is a bigger problem as traditional lasers didn't work, i had to go for electrolasys. I already did 4 sessions and have been in extreme pain. (200 euro per session) my upper lip is now hairless forever. The rest is still taken care of. It sucks that this leaves redness / wounds for photoshoots, but thats only for a few days)
✅ The workmen are almost finished fixing our roof.
Goodmorning everyone!!
I'm very excited the hardest 2 months of my life are running to an end.
They were so extremly productive.
After Sunday, i will be able to focus on sissyfication again a lot more
So okay, i'm exposed, let me tell the entire story of what happened to me the last few days.
Before i was a fulltime sissy, before covid, i played the game called Magic The Gathering.
Every Friday i went to a Local game store to play this game. And i was very very very competitive, i was really good at it, everyone knew me.
I enjoyed playing the game because it just helped me forget everything else for a while.
A few days ago, i received some messenger text from a friend who used to play there with me.
He told me howmuch he liked me (as a friend) and how valuable i was to the magic community as a player.
I found this abit strange and out of the blue but he is a super cool guy so whatever.
The next morning he texted me the folowing message : (litterly translated)
Hey, maybe a weird question...
But what do you do as a job? Because John was telling us vage stories about online sexwork.
If that is the case, i don't care, but i'd rather ask you than get the information from John (Because you never get proper information from him)
So i tought i'd ask you upfront...
I knew my friend was a cool guy, so i just told him the truth.
He was really cool about it and very supportive! I even showed him a selfie of myself. But that guy john telling everyone is a douchebag.
Anyway, i told my BEST FRIEND mister georges this story.
Mister georges texted me back this :
''Oh yes i still had to tell you this, Yesterday, a friend of us told me that John was on a terrace showing everyone your twitter feed''
That sucked. And i had to think for a minute and i came to this conclusion :
I don't really care what people think about me.
I'm living my dreamlife, i'm very proud of what i achieved and no idiot can take that away from me.
But what i DO care about, is having a negative impact on my enviroment.
I don't want anyone to experience any issues from me being a sissy slave.
I used to be in a magic the gathering team. And by now, obviously the word spread like wildfire.
So i did what i had to do.
I told everyone in the team the same thing.
That i don't care what everyone thinks of me, but that i do care about having a negative impact.
I would hate it that this team would get famous because of anything else except the game.
I would hate it that the first time we get together again and play cards, the subject is my life instead of the cards.
So i left the team, to prevent them from being known as ''team sissy joyce'' instead haha.
Everyone was actually very supportive of me.
John, who tried to make me look bad, failed extremly hard, everyone thinks he is an idiot now, and everyone thinks what i'm doing is super cool.
You would think it ends here?
No.
Since everyone knows i'm a slut, i'm getting a few messages from people that know me that want to use me.
Boring Life Update :
As you know, April and May, i'm really investing as much as possible into myself and i'm really happy with the results so far, and so will you be!!
I just came back from the dentist they took my teeth print so that i can get my teeth whitened at around may 20 already!
That is good news!
So what do i have planned for this week
Today : Princess Diamonds is going to visit family, so i will be home alone untill sunday. I need to drive her there, rest of the day i will be spending on the webshop and onlyfans; In the evening, i'm going for a drink with Mister George
Tomorow : A workout just like i've been doing every single day for the last 10 days now and then some more webshop work. (The webshop should be finished after this week, i'm re-organizing it and adding more products) The reason i can't dress is because what i have to do on friday.
Friday : Electrolasys hair removal appointment. This is for my facial hair. This is a 2hours30mins session of extreme extreme pain. (Yes i cried).
The reason i can't dress is because they need to see the hairs on my face so they know where to put the electric needle in and find the hair sacks.
Saturday : HOPEFULLY i will be able to hide the scars from electrolasys with make-up and make content. A master bought me for 24 hours! ANd i'm going to be his either this saturday or sunday.
I HOPE that my personal trainer has a few hours of her time to sit and talk about how WE can offer the sissy community a feminizing diet that actually works
Sunday : The person who does my electrolasys asked if she could do my make-up and give me tips. I invited her to my house and said yes.
On top of all this, i have a really long skincare routine for my laser hair removal AND i'm doing anal bleeching every evening.
I am very very tired, but i'm also very driven, i know that if i work hard now, and push forward, i will be much happier, make better content, and make other sissies happy too
I remember these pictures, haha, i just found the hiding spot of my chastity keys and when Princess Diamonds was away i unlocked myself haha
I got punished soooooooo hard for this.
Good news by the way!
I'm back from the dentist.
My original plan was to have my teeth whiter and my smile abit more perfect, but the dentist said i needed 5 appointments to make my teeth ''healthy'' first.
So i finished those, and now next month, i'm going to start with getting my teeth whitened (idk the right words in english haha) And after they are white, they are going to adjust them a little bit so they look more straight.
This all sounds very bad, but my smile right now is still very clean and healthy, i don't have bad teeth or ugly teeth, but i just want the perfect cumdumpster smile you know... 😊😊😊😊
A not so boring life update 😡😡🥵
A real life friend of mine asked if it was true that i do sexwork.
I told him Yes, and what i did exactly and he was very positive about it. Apperantly theres one guy who i used to game with that knows about it and showed my twitter feed to almost all of my gaming friends 😑
Oh well 🤣
